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Michael Jackson Asked Nurse for Diprivan, a sedative - ABC News

Diprivan - Found in Michael Jackson's Home - Associated Press

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I can't help but be fascinated by all this Jackson drama,
A new story comes out EVERYDAY.

But Im moving on,

I right now, have a stomach ache, and feel like I have to go to the bathroom, yet have found myself, constipated  for the past few days.  This is a problem. Sorry Tmi. 

I lost 6 pounds so far in the past 2 weeks, I thought I'd gained it back as I cheated yesterday having spent the day with Dan for his mothers b-day, Cupcakes and such. But to my surprise I havn't gained anything back, so far, so good.

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  The first part of today was complete torture, Thunder, all day long.

I've found a comfort though, ear plugs and lying on the floor with Luna,

If im on the floor, lying down or sitting, she'll usually come up to me and lie on me or rest her body near my head,

Shes much smaller than I am, but I feel safe with her near me. She is so fearless..
I guess Im hoping it'd rub off on me.

The thunder had stopped by the time work came around which was good, because the ear plugs make hearing anything a bit hard.

I just like the fact that it muffles the bangs of thunder that generally scare the shit out of me.

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  Dan and I went to Thayer St again on Tuesday, to Shades Plus since last time we went it was ..3 minutes to closing time.  I was pretty much in Heaven, Hello Kitty Heaven. I ended up leaving with a few pens, a squirrel bobblehead, cell phone charms, rubber erasers candy cigarettes (Nostalgia purposes)  and a chocolate calculator =).

The first picture on top is from a reviewer who writes a blog called The Traveling Wheelchair he writes reviews on various places in RI and Mass and how wheelchair friendly they are,

He wrote a review on Shades Plus which unfortunately has no wheelchair accessibility.
So Zero stars. That is really terrible. Not that he rated it zero stars, but that he missed out on a great place like this,

Shade Plus Review 

Shades Plus is an incredibly fun place to shop, it is tiny, but it is jam packed with various toys and knick-knacks, if your clostrophobic, don't come, it can get exceptionally crowded in a short amount of time,  it has random crap that no one really needs but is mostly for novelty and fun purposes. The prices are really cheap,
It's like the penny candy/toy store.

Found out day time is probably a bad time to go to Thayer St, lack of parking and at the end of a fun day,
 a lovely parking ticket >_<.

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Remember how I said I was almost finished with Tingle's Rosy Rupeeland?
Yeah not even close, I found out there are 2 more continents to get through,
Which is good, Im having fun playing it =)

Posted Jun 30th 2009 11:39PM by TMZ Staff

Sources tell TMZ an extremely dangerous and potent drug used for surgical anesthesia was found at Michael Jackson's house after he died.

We're told the drug Propofol was discovered at the residence. The drug is used to put people under anesthesia before surgery. It is an extremely powerful drug that is only available to medical personnel. As one source said, "There is no conceivable way this drug can be properly prescribed for home use."

The drug can only be administered with an IV. Interestingly, Propofol burns and the drug Lidocaine is used to reduce the pain associated with the Propofol injection. As we first reported, Lidocaine was found near Jackson's body.

One of the major side-effects of Propofol is cardiac arrest if it's taken in combination with narcotic painkillers, however, Propofol is so powerful it can stop someone's heart on its own.

A registered nurse has come out and said Jackson begged her for the drug Diprivan -- the brand name for Propofol. She says he needed it for insomnia but she declined to supply it.

Sources say the drug is so inappropriate and reckless for home use, if a doctor facilitated it for Jackson, he or she could be prosecuted for manslaughter.

I don't normally trust sites like TMZ with this type of information as they are mostly a scandal site, but for some reason... I think this might be accurate.

Propofol's brand name is Dipravan, and Dipravan is the drug that Nurse was talking about..

If you still havn't read that story it's here Nurse's Story

Im going to make a hypothesis and say this is how he died, and thats why they havn't reported it yet..

If this is the case, that doctor who was in his home that day he died, should go to jail.

For allowing a surgical anesthetic to be received so easily, and neglect for not monitoring him.

Unless he was doing some sort of surgical procedure while in his home.

I hope im wrong, but it wouldn't surprise me if I was right.

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Yes im talking about this again,

When Michael Jackson was alive, all we really focused on was the negative things in his life,

The fact that he was once a black man, turned white man,

The fact that his face kept changing and his nose kept getting smaller.

The fact that he hung out with boys and supposedly.. played a bit too much with them. 

(Which turns out in one case may be false. Child Victim admits he lied about Michael Jackson)

Now that hes dead, he's become even more famous, because he died, before his time.

Like Cobain, 2pac, Elvis and Selena.

Now that hes dead we're saying what a tragedy it is, what a loss, what a good guy he was.

Why is it that we remember the good things about people, when their dead?

I guess its really true what they say that death brings remorse, and even more so compassion.

Just a thought.

**In Other News**

I've lost 6 pounds so far, in the last 2 weeks. =)
Im quite proud.
I've been watching a lot of what I eat and cut down completely,
I never really finish a meal fully anymore.

T

**Edit**

I love the fact that Michael left his dad out of his will. Look at his most recent interview. 
His son didn't die, the "biggest superstar in the world" died.
Also,  Did you know that I have a new "record label" coming out?
I can't say I blame Michael for doing it.

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Ok They say that they usually go in 3's, I guess god made an exception.
Holy Crap that's.. 4 this month.

DEVELOPING: Television pitchman Billy Mays — who built his fame by appearing on commercials and infomercials promoting household products and gadgets — died Sunday, MyFOXTampa.com reports.

TAMPA — Billy Mays, the TV pitchman whose trademark voice helped sell everything from cleaning supplies to baking soda, was found dead this morning by his wife at his Tampa home. No cause of death has been reported and no foul play is suspected, according to Tampa police.

Mays, 50, was pronounced dead at 7:45 a.m. at 2853 Bowen Daniel Dr., #1201. His wife, Deborah Mays, found him unresponsive this morning. The Medical Examiner's Office will complete Mays' autopsy by tomorrow afternoon.

"Although Billy lived a public life, we don't anticipate making any public statements over the next couple of days," Deborah Mays said in a statement today. "Our family asks that you respect our privacy during these difficult times."

Mays was a passenger Saturday of the 737 aircraft that took a hard landing at Tampa International Airport, an airport spokeswoman said.

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I mean a lot, like .. months worth of thought.

But I really want to do this.

I want to get a tattoo. I definetely want to do it. That I know for sure,

I guess the hardest part, is trying to figure out, what exactly I want.

I know for a fact that I don't want anything colorful.

I want it strictly black, nothing huge, small.

I was thinking maybe something to do with my heritage.

Maybe some Thai script.

I really like the design that Angelina Jolie has on her back.

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I don't want the same thing obviously, her's is basically a blessing to protect her and her children..
I like the script its just a matter of what I'd want it to say, and ..god knows when I'll go back to Thailand again,

Because if I do get a tattoo I obviously want it done right.
Meaning I'd have to get it done in Thailand.

But at the same time ..do I want a design?

I don't know. I do know I want it on my  inner arm, its not hidden, its in plain view.
Because it will be a part of me.
People can either take it or leave it.

I might have to save my money to go back to Thailand. Even if its for a week.
If thats what I decide.

It's been 2 days since he died and I need to get over it. I was pretty depressed yesterday.
I've never been this crazy over any celebrity. Im just shocked it struck me this hard.
 I havn't cried or anything just felt like, a tide wave hit me.  Like a part of my childhood is gone.

Dan cheered me up though, =)
He's terribly good at that.

Wickenden

We went to Wickenden and Thayer st.  Shopping and Bubble Tea, and I forgot all about it. I guess thats all it takes =)

Wickenden st, had a lot of vintage shops, I love things like that. Especially ones with Jewelry.
Not really into the ones with furniture, at least not yet anyway.

If your really into art, Wickenden st is the place to go.

I was looking for a rosary, they had lots of them but none that i really gravitated to.

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We went to Thayer st, which is always a blast, It's like New York City on one street, its the one place where you can spot a person of every race, and its the one street where you can find every cuisine imaginable.
 Except maybe.. German?

Never the less its a blast going there, there are so many shops, unique ones at that, Walking up and down the street, it's always a lot of fun.

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Some of the stuff I bought yesterday,

The Gold bracelet I bought from Curiosities in Wickenden for $8. That store is so cute. It's old style vintage but if your looking for a certain thing its like they have everything seperated into sections the rosarys are in one section, the bracelets and necklaces in another. buttons, little knickknacks. It's a really old fashioned bracelet but I like it, it might have been the stones that caught my eye. Shiny.

The leather bracelet I got from Pie in the Sky on Thayer, I wanted to get another one like the one I have, (the drawstring broke) but this was the only one they had, I like it though so its ok =).

I got the black glass ring from Spectrum India on Thayer, that stores is pretty neat, it has anything from India you can think of, and lots of dollar store stuff. I was really tempted to get some henna but it was a little pricey.
I really only went there to get another ring because mine broke.. glass figures.
and I ended up getting two more free because he lets you have another ring free with one purchase. He said Dan could have one too, but none of them fit him, so I took another one for myself =) I now have...4 lol. As extras just incase this one breaks again (Which it will)

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Next we went to a place called Shades Plus, I love this place already, I was only in there for 3 minutes as they were about to close but they have the most awesome stuff there, Toys, Japanese, Hello Kitty, and best of all CELL PHONE CHARMS. I kind of collect them o.o.

So When I saw them I kind of had an aneurism. lol. Finally a local place to get decent cell charms!

Dan and I might go again this Tuesday, Early so we can go into Shades Plus longer then 3 minutes.
They have weird hours.

The Kewpie doll and the Kitty from Kiki's Delivery service were kind of pricey as they are official merchandise.
But I just got paid =p So its ok.

The Dog angel was really cheap surprisingly it was just a $1.00. Which is a real bargain. It's hanging on my ds right now.

So it was a blast ^_^.

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I've decided to lose weight, I know I've said this so many times, and a lot of empty promises.
But Im determined to do it this time. I just feel like I really need to make a change to myself.
I want to wear jeans but not have to buy them at extroadinary prices from a certain store.  

I've already lost 5 pounds within the last week or so. I can definetely notice it in my face.
Im kind of ...crash dieting. I know what your thinking BAD, but its the one thing that work.

Calorie watching, mostly. 

and my body doesn't gain weight easily. So when I get to a certain weight it takes my body awhile to gain it back.
Im hoping to lose .. 30 more pounds to get to my ideal weight.

Dan of course says I look amazing and hes worried about what im doing, but I told him I'd be fine, and I'd let him know if there was something to worry about.

Im doing it I guess to feel confident in myself.
Im definetely not looking to be a stick figure, I still want meat on my bones, just enough to .. feel good about it.

Gone

No more

Dan and I must have went to every story, FYE, Newbury Comics, They were all gone,

At FYE there was actually a sign that said "Go to Front for Michael Jackson Music"

So I went to the front and they offered to make me a MixandBurn cd,  Im going to pay someone to burn me a cd?

Are you kidding? I can do that at home. Which I ended up doing, at Dan's house.

So I have every song on a cd which im going to sort through when I get the chance. Put on my Ipod. 

I have a few concerts too, im going to watch at some point.

I have work tonight and tomorrow, so no time soon -_-.

**Edit**

Oh and I switched Weekends at work because they needed someone who knows the floor on the other weekend,

So im working this weekend and next Sunday. As I start the new weekend in July, But thankfully she gave me the 4th off.
 
I guess its been chaotic because they have a bunch of new people on the floor and NO ONE knows the floor. So a lot of the patients who go to bed at ...7:00 have been going to bed at like 10:00.
 
So they had to put someone who knows the floor on that weekend.. so I volunteered.

I don't care a weekend is a weekend to me. No matter who I work with. 

I just hope I didn't make a mistake in doing that.. -_- Im under enough stress as it is.

I got a raise though so, its good, not much but, its something =).

I can't believe I've been working there a year now! Seems like yesterday I was hired. 

Im still in total holy shit, shock mode. He's dead. I can't believe it.

Im not even being dramatic when I say this, I feel like someone close to me just died.

When I first heard he died, I felt this weird ping in my stomach. Like this is no joke.

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